Time to say Goodbye

It’s time to move on.

Time to move forward.

Time to say goodbye to all the pieces I’ve lost- pieces that were taken from me.

Goodbye to the three-year-old me’s innocence. You didn’t deserve to be hurt and destroyed. You deserved to be protected. You deserved to be loved and cherished.

Goodbye to my 15-year-old youth. I don’t know what he did to you but I am sorry it happened. I’m sorry you had to deal with it alone. I’m sorry no one noticed. You deserved someone to have seen your pain. You deserve the protection.

Goodbye to the 28-year-old woman who so desperately wanted to be seen and chosen that she settled for the wolves in sheep‘s clothing. You deserved your No’s to be respected. You deserved a partner who loved you, who respected you, someone to take care of you.

Goodbye to the 43-year-old woman who carries unspeakable pain. A woman carrying the pains of lifetimes. A woman whose courage knows no bounds but is tired of fighting, of being on guard. Waiting for the next trauma.

Goodbye to all the me’s that believe this is what we deserved. That we couldn’t ask for more. Goodbye to the weight of disgusting. Goodbye to a body abused and burdened. Goodbye to the terror and the horror we hold in our bones.

Time to say hello

It is time to say hello to new possibilities. It is time to move forward with love and joy.