NOT TODAY

Tired of living this horror

The silent triggers

The silent shame

I just want peace…

Touching the tender spots of trauma and shame

Trying to find compassion when all I feel is loathing

A prison I cannot escape

The pain is real

The viscera holds all and seeps through my pores

Leaving me feeling the ick

To live disconnected

To be disembodied

Seeking for a solace in the midst of such trauma and self-hate

To learn the love I was never shown

To find peace when the enemy lies within

That little brown girl deserves compassion

To know she matters

To show her that the world doesn’t hate her

To know its ok to play

To know that it’s safe to explore

To know she is ok.

To know she is not a mistake

To know that she is worthy of life

To know that she did nothing wrong

To know that it’s safe to be in this world

A world full of voices saying she was not enough

That she was less than

That she asked for it